Panic

I had a panic attack last night. No idea from what. I was driving home from Brooklyn, when all of a sudden my chest started getting tighter and tighter like I was being squeezed in between a sandwhich press. It was hard to breath and my heart was racing a million miles an hour. It felt like I was driving sooo fast and everyone around me even faster! When I finally got home, I started to cry. I still have no idea what caused it. I think I'm just stressed out alot. I forgot alot of things today too. I left my phone at work. When I went back to get it I remembered I had to pick up my dry cleaning. When I left the dry cleaners, I left my car keys there. I feel like I'm going nuts. I need to take a breather and just relax a little bit. That's the plan for the week. RELAX!

Capriciously Unpredictable

The road I have previously mapped for my future has slightly been altered. Who's to say what and where they will be in 10 years, it's an impossible thing to predict. So I asked my self, why do "people" put so much emphasis on planning everything out? I have turned the page in that chapter of my life. The chapter where I not only planned everything out, but almost fell apart when certain things didn't happen. I am on the road to "unpredictablism". I may have made that word up, but the meaning it holds is simple. I plan to lead life capriciously and not try to map out every single road I need to travel on. This does't mean that all goals I have set will just be thrown away. Just simply set to the side, where they can still be seen and remembered, after all I have to push towards somewhere. I have a different outlook on how life should be. If I don't get to where I want to be, or if I don't reach a certain place I thought I may reach, it's not going to be the end. I will make a new goal or push towards a different light and keep going.